carpal tunnel sucks
So I made this today and I want to share it, but I also want to be real. I'm not looking for pity or anyone else to join the pity party. I'm having a hard time. I know that is compounded by the difficulty in doing the things I normally would to help me get through those hard times. I made this today, but already I am paying for it with a migraine that includes my entire arm and half my face tingling in addition to nausea. My hand is shaking from the effort of it. I hate that. I'm happy that I could hold the pen that long. I drew it out last night. The constant pain in the left hand has abated, and I'm so grateful for that even though there is still some tenderness. I can currently bend my fingers all the way in my right hand, but with great effort. It's something- something I'm grateful for and frustrated by all at once. I know that I'll have to ice and splint and take ibuprofen for it and even then I might still deeply regret this much use with pain and stiffness the rest of the day. It's hard. I played a song on the piano yesterday. I played it and it felt good to play it. But it hurt so much in that one finger that it took away the joy. And I typed some, at the computer instead of my phone that is annoying me because it's not the same, but then my wrist was just so tired. I had a pity party the other day because grocery shopping induced nausea from the effort and pain and weakness my wrists now feel, no doubt from being able to use them so little recently. So I'm doing stuff, and that makes me happy, but then it feels so dang frustrating. I did make an appointment but it's so far out. I would love to go hiking. I tell myself how that doesn't involve my hands and would bring me joy...but I don't know about the camera situation.... But also I can't be outside right now because my allergies are just so bad. So, I guess I'm just saying that I'm having a hard time. I don't know what can be done or helpful for any of it or my mood...but I just needed to be real and needed it to be known by my more patient husband.